I just read my first post. It was made in November of 2011, just shortly after joining my gym.
I could look at this in one of two ways:
1) I have had more than enough time to get down into "onederland" and my current goal weight of 175 (which will most likely alter as I get there as I figure out what is actually necessary for my body...hopefully less than that even, but I am not going to let a number become the obsession...too many people get fixated on a number that's not realistic, and when they don't stay at it, they completely give up...not going to be me. Wow, that was a long, long sentence :). So, since I have had more than enough time to get to my goal weight, I must have failed.
2) Working out has become a lifestyle that I can't give up. The diet (or eating lifestyle) needs some serious work yet, but working out---my legs HURT if I don't move them. While not near my goal weight yet, I have visible muscle in my legs and arms. My shoulders are also the obvious shoulders of someone who pushes weight. My cardio abilities have allowed me to just start jogging--for miles at a stretch.
Sure, the scale still has a 2 in front of it (228 as of this morning), and I should, by rights, be much farther along than that by now.
But, if going by thresholds of five pounds, I have passed five of them, and in that movement, I have lost major inches, and look completely different than 255.
So, which do I look to? #2, of course! It just can't be about the scale. Yes, I need to get more disciplined about my eating (and no, it's really not about the pigging out...for me, it's kind of the opposite. As a teacher who does extra duties as well, I can go WAY TOO LONG between eating anything at all. I also have this thing about washing my hands before I eat (and if you think that's ridiculous, go to a public place and pick out some random teenagers to observe for a few minutes. Watch what they do...then times that by 100...yeah, you will want to wash your hands too). If I can't wash my hands, that limits what I can grab quickly between classes (and kids usually have questions, and so, really, it would just sit there anyways). AND, absolutely no nut products in the school---which axes any of the healthy grab'n'go non-cold items. That's PART of my problem. The other part is probably ice cream. I love it. Can't help it. And honestly, I don't want to live in a world without it :)
As I begin my morning (or began it), I am revisiting some old thoughts and goals, and drinking a smoothie (banana, frozen strawberries and blueberries, ground flax, whey protein, spinach, and some fruit juice to the blades to make it spin). This is a jam-packed, healthy breakfast that is DELICIOUS...especially if you let the blades spin for a bit to make it creamy (if you do, you'll need a fairly big glass, as the air literally whips in and makes it amazing)! But, I digress. I am revisiting my goals and planning my day. While it includes work I need to do for my grad degree, I very quickly realized my brain was orienting all of that around my workout, which will definitely include Pump, but also a bike or a jog. My brain isn't trying to figure out how to get the workout into my work schedule.
That's progress. That is not where I was at 255. So, if I am sitting at 228, but that's my brain's reorientation, I will take it gladly, because I know that the next steps will only improve what I am doing.
Happy Thursday, everyone, and I apologize for the length! :)